My main current conundrum seems to be this human. This creature that is me, you and us too. Form early childhood I learned that love would heal everything. It remains an important message in the fragmented society. I have believed this and therefore always heavily invested in this. And all my long term relations suffocated anyway. I now still suspect it is true, but it seems to be what I call a half truth. The unseen part is missing and so the whole concept fails in the long run. I was blind to the other part.
The other fundamental part is the very personal unique individuality we also have. My hunch is that a healthy relation between togetherness and being alone with ‘myself’ could be my most important lesson now.